Monday, March 26, 2007

Yea, I know the date's redundant. Never mind.

Went to work around 9++ am this morning.
Had brunch around 10++ am.
Pester strangers to sign up course around 11++am.
Stood under the scorching sun around 12++pm.
Pester more strangers to sign up.
Lard-tank refilling around 4++pm.
I'm getting good at pestering strangers.
Dinner around 6++pm.
Got home around 7++pm.
Online around 8++pm.

So tiring. You got that right. No typo there. Tiring it is. Don't need to tell me "Like that nia you feel tired dy." I'm tired and that's that. Fullstop.

Looked through my messages and testimonials in Friendster. Nostalgia crept in. I miss those good old days. I miss those carefree (well, not really, but kinda) days. I miss my friends.
But then, something else had to spoil those beautiful memories. Big ugly smudges on a very beautiful painting. What's worse is that, I actually do miss those smudges too! Damn you bastards! Hahaha. Sigh.

It hurts to think that those days are just mere memories now. Things just ain't the same anymore. People I thought were nice are plain bastards and bitches. Their true color slowly unveiling, gradually coming to a point where I realize it's time I repaint whatever is left in the back of my head. Hmm... I'm starting to sound like a madman.

It feels good to crap unnecessarily unnecessary crap sometimes.
-_- I'm lame.
Nites.

Labels: Personal Crap

It's been more than a week and I survived pretty ok I guess. Finally got the hang on how things work. A lil problem here and there, normal la... but hey, I tried. I did.

On that fateful day, I was prepared to leave. I sat there feeling somewhat miserable and close to tears. There's one thing I can't stand, and that is feeling trapped. I felt trapped. I felt forced. I felt lost. I didn't know what to do. To get up and leave? Or bear with it and go cuckoo?

My supervisor gave me a pep talk. Gave me motivation and all. Turns out she isn't all that ganas as I feared she might be. Hopefully. So here I am, still a working lady. And I hope it'll last.

On a lighter note, I'm going badminton-ing tonight with my colleagues. Wait, I don't play badminton, so I'll be erm... going around picking shuttlecocks. Oohh, would you guys (you people who know me) believe that people at work described me as anti-social o.O When I asked Sim@braboi what would our friends' reaction be like if they heard this, he said "a combo of longpiak and peng" hahahaha

My supervisor DID ask me if I like socializing and "make" new friends. I gave her a plain NO. Not my habit to go befriend strangers. Ahaha. Yeah I know I am quite noisy and crazy at times, ok ok VERY, but it doesn't mean I have to go around and be mega friendly and nice with everyone right? With some people, I can be real friendly and crazy even on the first meet. But with some, even after meeting up / hanging out a few times, I'd still be reserved and quiet, and it takes time before I actually open up. Like that lo... I think.

Labels: Personal Crap, Work

I hate work I hate work I so hate work!
I know... I complain a lot. So what?! That's the reason I started "blogging" nyways. I kuat complain one (and you might come across some unreasonable ones too). Get used to it.

It's only the second day of work, and I have already considered resigning. For Lyd to be in this line is like putting a crippled pig in the middle of the sea! I so hate it! Benci benci benci!!!
The worse is still having to converse and convince in mandarin. Waaahhh... HOW?! My mandarin like sai eh!
Well, you see, for me to *ahem* present those products in english dy ssooo blardy challenging (coz my brain very rusty, abit squarish, very slow etc etc), what more to say in mandarin?!
Training provided was in mandarin *cuss cuss cuss* I couldn't understand more than 90% of the terms they used! So you tell me how? Fine la, they translate for me. Then if customer wants me to explain in Mandarin, ah neh wa masi si?! Now the pressure's on! Shits. Plus lagi my leader / supervisor mega garang one. Habis la.
You see, even complaining on my own blog my thoughts are like ssoo not organized. How to present to customers like that?

Argh. I'm gonna give this maybe a month try, and if I really can't take it, hop job lo. Maybe I should start applying for positions like Nanny, Maid, Janitor... you get the drill.

I'm off to complain more.... verbally.

Labels: Personal Crap, Work

Shit. Shit. Shit. SSHIIITT!
Sorry, just had to get that out of the system.

Come come, I'll let you in on a lil secret of mine...... I am, in reality, just a puppet. No joke, buddy. Now I understand why Pinocchio so desperately wanted to be a boy.

No details for now. Bye.

Labels: Personal Crap

Not much success in my life. So close to being crushed by the oncoming trucks of despair and poverty. After months of bumming and jobless and surviving solely on relatives' kindness, finally got myself a shitty job. Lo and behold.... education consultant aka annoying sales/marketing ass. Hu-bloody-rray.

Thursday would be my first day in paid employment. Hopefully I don't screw things up, else I'd be eating shit for the next few months or so.

Sigh. Comforting myself that this is just a start. What the heck, its a freaking good start I'd say, seeing what a loser I am. With my qualifications, I dare not tackle "better" jobs. Yeah call me coward. ~!@#$%^&* There's a bloody good long story behind the cowardice, the lack of confidence, the low self-esteem, blah blah blaahh. And I don't intend on going into it now.

Been drowning my misery in Dan Brown's works. For the record, I completed Angels and Demons and Digital Fortress all in less than a week. That's how aimless and useless I have been. Stuffing my lard-filled form with more lard and hiding away in my room with my head buried in books. That's practically what I did for the past months, apart from occasional out jobhunting, limteh-ings and gatherings with successful in-pace friends.

Gaahhh... I need a life!

Labels: Personal Crap