Warning: Very unorganized rantings ahead

My aunt made me go to church this morning, 8am service. It was a painful effort to get up as early as 7am =( But I went, and I guess I'm pretty thankful I did.

Coincidentally, or Christians like to call it God-incidentally, the speaker was an invited Reverend from another church, and he preached a lil something on faith.

Faith. Definitely not my strong point. I had stopped attending church about 4 years ago. Reason(s). I couldn't wake up that early? No. More of having problems in this Faith Department. Been going astray since. Sadness.

Anyways, he told us this story of a cancer patient. A third stage cancer patient. Mr Patient's faith wasn't as strong. He believed that God will heal him, but when friends and relatives visit, his faith was shaken. They told him he would most probably not make it as he was in a critical condition. So Mr Patient constantly called up this Reverend and cried his heart out.

The Rev would ask him "Do you choose to believe in God or them?". As simple as that. Every time Mr Patient felt uncertain, the Rev asked him the same question. Do you choose to believe in God or them? And each time, Mr Patient would answer "God." So trust God with all your heart, and not let your faith be wavered by words that are not of God's.

We always seek alternatives even though we know that with God, all things are possible. We say that we believe in God, but at the same time, we'd go around looking for alternatives, thinking "what if it doesn't turn out right, we need a plan B." That's plainly doubting God. But I guess we never realize that. The Rev shared with Mr Patient that he has to trust God completely and not drown himself in "what-ifs". He has to believe that God will indeed heal him. And that's what Mr Patient did after many encouraging visits from the Rev. By God's grace, he's completely healed today.

I was touched and amazed at what faith, pure faith, could do. Picture yourself in a very sick condition, and all you have to do to be healed, is simply have faith. Many people claim that they have faith. They are 100% dependent on God. But having faith isn't something that is easy for me. After going through so much in life, I tend to think a lot, and that led to doubts. I respect Mr Patient for having such faith. I want to trust God too. I want to be 100% dependent on God too. I want to let God take control of my life too. Faith. I want to have faith. God, take me back into Your mighty arms.

Not only in sickness, but also other aspects of life, put God first. He is not an alternative.

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